oh.

oh, terrible person;

oh, woe is me, terrible

'person' for terrible acts

that were never committed

in the first place.

oh, second place,

welcome me. welcome

me? welcome 'person'

for uncommitted deeds

and false memories?

is it welcome? is it

welcome?

oh, honey. oh, darling.

oh, sweet sweet sinner

from catholic school

in the back seat of a fighter jet.

oh, military propaganda

for a life un-lived. oh,

song. oh, drown it out.

oh, performance.

oh, performance.

oh, beautiful girl.

oh, girl to be taken.

oh, girl to be used.

oh, girl, get used to it,

you'll be dealing with this

longer than it was dealt to you.

oh, girl, you'll be hurt

longer than the hurters. oh,

sweetheart, i forgive you because you

were young. but you are me,

so i also hate you.

oh, little one.

won't you grow up?

won't you be a failure

earlier than i was?

won't you give up

like i never did?

won't you hitch a breath

on a short prayer,

wish you never were

wish they never were

wish those things...

oh, those things.

wish they never were?

see, you're younger than me.

oh, you're so much younger than me.

wish they were never done;

see, twenty-three year olds

don't have fairy godmothers.

they have propranolol and therapists

and dialectical behaviour therapy forms

forgotten to be filled in.

oh, forgotten.

oh, stone slabs with no meaning.

oh, stonehenge.

oh, mythology.

be an anthropologist, my love.

curl up your grief

and your trauma

and work it into a pretty clay sculpture.

oh, sweetie, make it beautiful

please

make it beautiful. make it

loved, or just make it.

let it be finished

and loved

and long-lasting

and then die.

oh, and then die.

listen to music.

sink into music.

be music,

be beautiful,

be consumed.

you are what was done to you.

after all,

oh, after all,

you are what was done to you.

you are what was done?

you are done.

April 2022